a new level of humiliation

Weekend before last we were in a city a few hours away celebrating valentines day. We stayed in a nice hotel and had a very nice time Friday night with a yummy seafood dinner. It was fun and kind of romantic. Saturday night we were heading out to our favorite restaurant in the city. I was unlocked and feeling good, we were feeling romantic and loving. We went to the hotel bar before heading out to dinner. Goddess met a cute guy and the 3 of us chatted. We were in a couch type area and eventually another couple joined us. Goddess full attention was on the single man as I chatted with the couple. I was feeling kind of sheepish at this point as goddess was obviously very into the guy and I am pretty sure everyone there knew it. I was glad as we got up to leave, we were heading to a bar before dinner. Goddess gave the man her number telling him to text her if he had time to stop by the bar before we left for dinner. At this point again I am glad we are leaving, I do enjoy her being with other men, it turns me on but in this case her affection towards this guy was both emasculating and humiliating being our celebration night and in front of this other couple. We got to the bar and it was a fun live music steak dinner kind of place. We were really enjoying it when the guy showed up and had brought the couple with him. At this point I am still thinking we are heading to dinner soon, so I am not as concerned. We all sit again in a couch type place and again she is siting next to and chatting with the guy. At some point she suggests "hey lets just all eat here". So I call the restaurant and cancel our week old reservation at our favorite restaurant. We had already told them all this was our celebration for valentines at this great restaurant. At this point I was completely humiliated and goddess was all in. She sat next to him at dinner leaving the seat next to me empty. She spent her time chatting with him, giving him her full attention. One person at the restaurant mistook him for her husband and she enjoyed it. Actually anyone not in our group probably assumed they were together. Eventually they got up and danced. Goddess very much enjoyed this, the public display of her power and his attention. When the band stopped we all left and went to another bar. I offered to head to the hotel and wait for her but she wanted me to come along. It continued at the new bar though they decided not to dance they chatted happily and enjoyed each other. Eventually around 130 I offered that it might be time to call it a night and they agreed. We walked and they talked eventually parting reluctantly. He was too shy and she too unsure to ask him up or her to his place. So we headed up to the room. We snuggled and fell asleep quickly. I was glad to be holding her, at last she was mine again.

This is me in my new tag, it was a valentines present to goddess. I call her mommy most of the time, it is an affectionate way of recognizing her dominance. It is currently away being adjusted. When it returns I expect it will be part of me for much of my time.

chastity, pleasuring and realizations

Last night I pleasured goddess all night with my fingers and tongue. She was mostly subdued like she was getting a back rub, she didn't cum. She just layed back enjoying hours of me licking her ass hole, pushing my face deep in her cheeks as she reclined on her side snacking and binge watching her favorite show. Or sucking a boob and rubbing her pussy as she layed straight back and watched her show snacking and drinking. She payed little attention to me sexually or made any noise like a woman in sexual bliss, save the occasional sigh of enjoyment. She spoke to me in loving terms and treated me quite normally. Truth is I think the sexual turn on and sexual need is very much second to the power and worship she felt from my attention. It has become clear, to both of us I think, she is very much enjoying her sense of power control and my need for her. This gets her wet and makes her desire my attention. She isnt like the stories you read, she isnt craving big cocks or actual sex, though I think she is thinking more about it than before. What she does really enjoy is my need, my humiliation and making me crazy with desire for her. At the end of the night she would not let me rub my pantied little penis against her sexy booty and cum as she lay there drifting off. Instead when she new I was close she rolled away and told me I had to do it myself. I had not cum in a week so I was grateful for any release at all. She is upset I haven't been in my cage this week due to a health issue. So I rubbed myself off while she called me her poor anxious little sissy and giggled. I came in my panties. The cage goes back on Sunday night with no definite release date. I have a feeling this one will last longer than a week. 

Goddess wants me to get a tag for my cage like the one below. Mommy is my pet name for her when she is being soft and loving, like last night.

Spontaneous ejaculation

So I have been caged by goddess for a while now, with days out of it for good behavior. I am allowed to look at porn. I was home one afternoon looking at porn i had been in my cage for sometime. I got a tingly feeling in my balls like an orgasm was nearing. Goddess texted and told me to go ahead and cum inside my cage. It was really quite amazing in a way. No shaking the cage or vibrating the cage just looking at porn, thinking of her, feeling very much a sissy and it built to the point of no return. The video above is a snippet of the video I made for goddess, part of her text required this. When it happened it was almost like peeing at first, just cum oozing out then a kind of intense feeling of my balls contracting but really not much of an orgasm, not much relief and not the joyous crescendo of a yummy orgasm, Just a kind of pressure release valve triggered and an oozing of cum. I was still horny for sure. It happened once again since. I worry now that goddess knows this is possible how long will she extend my days being caged?

Changes....

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switching

 Well i have to say I didnt see this one coming. Odd for me as I could have predicted just about everything in our sex life til now. She decided the cuckold thing wasnt working fro her. She didnt like me being submissive all the time. Honestly I was feeling neglected by the end due to her not wanting to domme me. I am happy to report I never did have any serious jealousy issues, our biggest worry i think. And she didnt lose respect for me at all.

So now what? Well we are giving her what she wants, I am doming her. We have had lots of fun with it, I love teasing her and she loves it. i may involve some of her old lovers in it, if she is a good girl. I may also get some other women involved, hmm... this could work. Honestly my biggest fear about doming her was my lack of penis size and ability tom last. What I am finding out is the mind fuck, and the liberal use of fingers and toys does just fine. In fact she is loving this and horny as ever. She took a butt plug for the first time and wants to again..soon! I made her lick my ass, which she doesn't like but did a fine job of. I ahve used the crop pretty hard on her ass and she liked it. She also likes me to slap her, though I dont so it hard. Being called a slut just makes her so wet. And I tell her about pimping her out to men in bars or making her give blow jobs in an adult theatre - wow she goes crazy. I fucked her from behind the other night then stopped pulled out and made her lick off her own juices. Tonight I was going to fuck her and make her clean me after I came in her. Thats definitely still on tap for another time. Alas she fell asleep. I could have used her in her sleep, she loves that but decided blogging and some porn sounded nice..back to my old self already I think.

 I miss the ability to be a sissy with all it entailed. But I am enjoying this and my chance to be a sissy will be back some day I think. There is a bbw I met that i think is sexy and like to flirt with, for some reason wifey is feeling jealous - usually she would not, she even encouraged it several times. I do like bbws! And I will be posting the video soon, it runs a little over 10 minutes. Wish I knew how to embed a video from a thumb drive, if anyone can tell me please do. I am a very low tech person..sigh....

dom wife submitting to huge cock

Tonight was the night for a dom wife to be the submissive slut taken by a large intimidating and dominating cock.  I happily played the role my sissy cucky hubby plays with this dominating cock.  I told my cucky he could never satisfy me so I needed a real man to dominate me, take control and fill me to a point of ecstasy.  I told this stallion that "I just wanted him to take charge so badly" that "I ached to be submissive to a huge cock" that I controlled my hubby's and I sex life and most everything else in our lives and I just wanted to give in to someone else's control for once.  It made my cucky slut so horny and ever more submissive to know and see what I told this dom in a message. 

Sucking his large 8 inch by 7 inch cock.  He said I needed to practice and "tutored" my submissive ass in the art of cock sucking. 

 Trying for an ass fucking.

  Succeeded. And oooohhhhh did it feeeeeeel gooooood!

Look at that sexy ass!  See the hand prints? Evidence of how dom wife was put in her place by a huge cock!

Humiliating my cucky sissy slut hubby.

http://xhamster.com/movies/1039152/wife_with_her_friend.html

Link to a video on our xhamster page of me riding his huge cock!

getting deeper into the play time

So the last couple weeks after our visit with the friend have been interesting. We have had some deep conversations about our roles in all this. We are both very committed to moving forward and we are both feeling closer than ever to each other. We both wonder about the roles slipping into every day life, which we both agree is somewhat inevitable. One thing we both noticed was how much sexual activity we are having. I say activity and not sex because it doesn't usually end in normal penetration any more. When it does, which has been a couple times recently, I usually come very quickly. Once this week she wanted me in her ass but as she began to line my cock up with her asshole the rubbing around was too much and I came. She whipped me with the crop for that, which has also become more frequent. The next night I finally made it into her ass, after being in her pussy a while, but didn't last long at all.

She has expressed worry that I cant penetrate her like I used to. Neither of us know if it is a phase or will be a normal part of this new life. I wish I could penetrate and last like I used to but it does feel natural to me to not be able to like I used to as well. Odd huh? This morning she was feeling that way so I suggested the strap on. She smiled, she hadn't thought of that. I put it on and was passionate with her like I used to be and she came very quickly from my finger. I then fucked her for a while with the strap on, she loved it. Funny thing my semi flaccid cock came from the friction of the harness and the excitement of how I was making her feel. 

Earlier this week we went shopping and picked me out some new panties, now I have 6-7 pair - I am really happy about this. I cant wait to wear them all. We also bought adult diapers in my size. I wore one last night, we played some but we got tired and it didn't go anywhere. I went to bed with the diaper on. I woke up having to pee and really wanted to pee in the diaper but just couldn't do it in bed. So I got up and went into the bathroom and peed in the diaper standing up. It felt wonderful.I went back to bed and told "mommy" I had wet myself. She was very good to me and got me up to get changed and cleaned up. She enjoyed it as well but was too tired to do anything with it. We will play with that some more. This morning, before the play time, we talked about it and she enjoyed hearing the details of it.

She told me tonight that she has never been truly satisfied by any man including me until she met her favorite lover last year. He was the first to really satisfy her. What she was getting at was giving her real hard fucking with a large cock, a fuck that could really rock her world. At first I was hurt for a moment but then I realized the truth of it. Those men, bulls, are different than most. They give her and many other women something they crave. that good hard big cock fucking. I want her to have this and obviously I cant giver it to her, never could. So I am happy to see her get it from other men. We have a date lined up for next weekend with a man who looks very promising. His cock is 81/2 inches and very thick, he claims he can go for a very long time and he likes being dominant. Plus he is a bigger guy which she likes. He is not bi so I will be just watching but I am excited about it. She also has her favorite coming up the end of this month. She is looking forward to both.

daydreams, sweaty pussy and other fun things....

My wife told me the other day she had a fantasy about me making out and playing with a tranny/shemale....sounds like fun to me!!

I read on someones blog (cant remember who, sorry) about being told by his wife to service a rather larger female friend. He was told to provide oral service for her, nothing more. That sounded so hot. I would love to serve a large woman, especially if she were sweaty, smelly from a long day at work or the gym!

We also decided we need names for our domme play. Hers will be Mistress Sex. She likes it. We havent decided on mine. The current choice is little penis boy. I kind of like it. I am feeling more submissive these days. We had some nice vanilla sex over the weekend. At one point I was in her ass slapping her face saying "tell daddy you like it". She loved it. We tend to pick whatever we are in the moment for, though I imagine domme play will become the most common choice eventually. I dont think we will ever be close to 24/7 or even near it. I think our sex life will always have variety.

a good night

Thursday night was unexpectedly fun. She began by teasing me about a man she knew who was being kind of submissive towards her. it turned her on greatly and she was considering her next move. She stroked me as she talked and got me very excited. I ended up giving her a nice orgasm by hand as she talked. She then mounted me and teased me for a while finally letting me cum. I then fucked her until I cam again. And very surprisingly still kept going and almost had a third. She told me after I stopped how sore she was. I asked if she had the chance to have another man and fuck again right now would she? She smiled, yes she said, she would. Such a slut! I love that so much! I am hoping for some more teasing some time soon. We had a nice little fuck Sat. morning as well. Life is good!

Serving the wife

Last night we had our first mutually enjoyable experience of me serving her, just serving her not sexual play. Well it did lead to two orgasms for her but it was really just about me serving. It started with her picking out some panties for me to wear. Not my favorite pair but i was turned on putting them on anyway. Then we went downstairs to watch some TV. i rubbed her back with lotion and massaged her. I rubbed her breasts with some lotion as well at her request. She is on her period so i was suprised when she told me to rub her clit. I did as instructed, she was wet with more than just blood! For the first time she was really getting off on me serving her. I felt really happy about that. She then made me suck on her lotioned breasts as I rubbed her. it tasted awful, which she knew, but I did as I was told like a good boy. She had a very nice orgasm. I rubbed her feet and gave her some more massaging then it was off to bed. I was sure the night was over as she tires easily when on her period but to my suprise she had me rub her off again. She told me what a good boy I was and how much she loved me as I rubbed her and sucked her nipples. She came hard, very hard. She smiled at me and took me inside her. I came very quickly. I tried to continue after coming, as I somtimes can do for some time, even cumming again on occaision. But alas I went soft quickly. As I lay there I thought about why I went soft so quickly. Many reasons came to mind but one suprised me. I really wanted her to leave me hard and wanting. I wanted to be left wanting her, in a constant state of arousal. Why would I prefer denial over staisfaction?? Not sure I know the answer but the desire is unquestionably real.