This blog relates the real life adventures of a married couple in their 30's. We are happily married for more than 10 years and have chosen to open our marriage up to new sexual realities, including cuckolding, sissification and a wife led marriage. All while loving each other more each day. If this is not your thing it's OK but this may not be the place for you. If you enjoy it please feel free to leave a comment. If you have questions please leave those as well. It is written by both Goddess and sissy - sharing all our thoughts and feelings regarding the journey. All the pictures on here are taken by me or found on the web. If I found it on the web I assumed it was part of the public domain. If you see a picture that is yours and want it removed please let me know and I will remove it.

Questions or comments may also be sent to

Thanks for stopping by!

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

no turning back.....

 The photo above is one Goddess lover sent her the other day. He is flaccid or he would be sticking out more but you can see what a nice body he has. The one below she sent back in return. She is an amazing looking woman. So very sexy!

She told me yesterday she is is no longer willing to go back to vanilla. I cant satisfy her anymore sexually, I will never be enough. That was hard to hear. You think you want to hear something like that if your a sissy submissive like myself but hearing it said in truth, in a non sexual moment is something else. I was upset all day. Not being able to go back means never being able to say "no i dont want you to see other men". She will never live with just me, just my tiny unsatisfying penis. I am still processing that. It is one thing to hear it in fantasy play. It is another to hear it on the couch holding a cup of coffee. I dont fault her at all. As she said you cant put the genie back in the bottle. 

When we first met and married she was inexperienced. Through our early sex lives my tongue was enough to keep her happy. No one had given her an orgasm like that. Eventually as in all marriage the sex life became dull. We looked at porn and that worked. She couldn't believe the mens cocks but they were actors. When eventually we decided to check out swinging and joined a website it was a whole new realization. Real men had cocks like that and some of them lived in our town! Now she has had real cocks, real men and she isnt about to give it up. She says she cant feel me anymore. She looks at me when I do get to put my lil penis in her and smiles. Like a mom watching a little boy play with a toy. I cant make her feel like they do. We saw a show recently about micro penises. She said it was the aha moment. Mine is only slightly bigger than a micro penis and those poor sad men have no hope of pleasing a woman with theirs. She realized then that it wasnt just her. It was a real thing, bigger is better. Size does matter and mine is far too small. 

So now what? Nothing has changed really right? What was a "game" a "role playing" thing we did is reality. I feel scared, submissive, small in many ways, humiliated and still of course turned on. She is working on accepting this herself. She didnt say it proudly or as something she wanted to make known more a talking through what was in her head, what she was dealing with. She seems to be accepting it in a very loving way. She doesnt blame me, i didnt choose this tiny penis. She doesnt want to lose me, she isnt going anywhere. But it cant ever be just me anymore, she cant be happy like that. Im scared but excited and relieved. And ever hopeful. 

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

my very small penis

The photo below is, of course my small penis. My wife calls it my little pee pee. One thing that has become clear over the years as we go in and out of different sexual places is that my penis is well below average and unacceptable to her. She gets no real sexual satisfaction from it. She told me a couple months ago she realizes it is no longer just something she says to humiliate me it is reality, my penis does not create any pleasure being inside her. Combined with trouble getting hard and cumming within a minute of entering her, there is nothing i can offer in the way of penetration. She likes me to walk around with my little pee pee sticking out of my jammies like this because she thinks its cute.  She plays with it, teases it or slaps it when she is in the mood.

Below is a real mans penis. The body and penis look a lot like her latest stud. He is very attractive and while he doesn't last for hours he can go several times a night lasting in total a couple hours with time in between for them to fondle and chat. She really enjoys this. I am not allowed to watch, only listen at times. Other times she plays with him alone and comes back to share bits and pieces.

So I apologize for the long break. I will be posting more often as goddess mommy desires I do this and share my humiliation, also a new thing for her.