This blog relates the real life adventures of a married couple in their 30's. We are happily married for more than 10 years and have chosen to open our marriage up to new sexual realities, including cuckolding, sissification and a wife led marriage. All while loving each other more each day. If this is not your thing it's OK but this may not be the place for you. If you enjoy it please feel free to leave a comment. If you have questions please leave those as well. It is written by both Goddess and sissy - sharing all our thoughts and feelings regarding the journey. All the pictures on here are taken by me or found on the web. If I found it on the web I assumed it was part of the public domain. If you see a picture that is yours and want it removed please let me know and I will remove it.

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Sunday, November 1, 2015

Our first Bull

First I apologize to our bull, he expected this done sooner I think and I have been tardy.

Going back a little over a week ago we met the new bull, the one who wrote the letter I posted, for a drink. We sat in a quiet little bar in a booth. One thing that really mattered would be goddess' first impression. It was favorable, she found him attractive - tall, manly with a handsome face. She also liked his mannerisms, he was easy to speak with and pleasant, he was direct and forceful but not pushy, he was gentlemanly but also very obvious and direct in his desire for her - she loved that. And she loved that he was seductive in front of me, wooing her in front of her sissy hubby. They talked and laughed, I joined in at times but mostly watched. He eventually rubbed her pussy under her dress as we sat in the booth. She opened her legs willingly for him and showed him her bare pussy. She put her hand on his cock and rubbed it through his pants. The night was cut shorter than both wanted as we had to get back for a sitter. On the way out she exposed her breast to him on command and he sucked it in the doorway. Plans were quickly made to meet again. That night she allowed me to enter her and cum inside her pussy. As is the case now it didn't last long and she didn't receive any real physical pleasure.

We ended up meeting for play the following week, last week. It was mid week so it wouldn't be able to be a long play time as we would have to get back for a sitter. We pulled up front and valet parked. We walked in without luggage or a reservation and requested a room for the night. Goddess loved it, we looked carefree and mysterious, we told the valet we would be back for the car before morning. She looked so hot. I am sure they thought us lovers in for a rendezvous, part of me wished it the case - to be her lover, the one who would make her feel like a woman, make her feel alive and passionate. She knew the truth and loved it being her secret - this handsome man wasn't her lover but her sissy, under her spell, her control. Her lover would be joining her soon enough. It was a nice powerful end to a stressful day for her. My stressful day would wind down with complete submission and humiliation.

He came into the room shortly later, I was drinking my scotch with the thirst of a sissy knowing things would be soon out of his control. Goddess sat easily sipping water, she had had one drink already and was in just the right mood. They greeted and soon were kissing hungrily. Goddess described him later to me as a very good kisser. He began removing her clothes and stood her in front of me. He kissed her on the back of the neck and fondled her, squeezing her breasts in his big manly hands. She loves having a man behind her like this, it is a big favorite, she was putty in his hands. The kissing on the back of the neck is one of her buttons, she purred. She looked at me, she smiled, she looked content, strong, superior, happy. We all knew our place in this moment. She liked showing me mine. As did he. He rubbed her pussy and made me taste the juices on his fingers. She reached back and rubbed his cock and moaned lightly as he humiliated me with words, telling me what he would soon be doing to her. He had me strip to my panties as he showed me my place. At some point his cock was out, it was magnificent. It is very thick and over 7 inches long. I sucked it on command, I loved it and hated that I loved it so much. I wanted to pleasure him, pleasure that amazing sexy cock. I wanted to taste his cum. I sucked greedily. They kissed as I sucked him, they made fun of me and laughed, he fondled and enjoyed her body as I sucked. Still I sucked, enjoying his cock trying to ignore my humiliation. He stopped me and went back to focusing on her alone. I was humiliated and turned on beyond measure. I sat and drank scotch but was not allowed to touch myself. Soon they drifted to the bedroom of the suite. I waited until called, I was allowed to rub myself in my panties as I waited. I finished my scotch as I did. Listening.

I entered the bedroom and sat as commanded in a chair at the foot of the bed. They were naked and playing. He ate her pussy and gave her a nice orgasm as a warm up. She humiliated me by saying he had replaced the one last thing I did well, licking her. Now I would have nothing left to give her she couldn't get elsewhere. He put a condom on and began to fuck her. I watched as she enjoyed him filling her, her hands roamed his body. He has a lean strong body. He was in the military for many years and his body is athletic and strong, moderately hairy, very manly. She was enjoying feeling it against her. The look in her eyes told me she was very much enjoying him. They focused on each other, only occasionally talking to me as they switched positions. Soon he came, shooting on to her pussy. I was made to lick it up. They both loved this. She would tell me later how hot it was to feel me licking it off her pussy. They kissed and held each other as I did. Then I was made to lick him clean as well. Again they cuddled and kissed as I did. Enjoying each other as I cleaned them. I felt humiliated by all of this of course. My little penis throbbed in my panties, I struggled with how much I enjoyed it as I licked up his cum and then sucked his cock. I sometimes describe hating myself for how mow much I enjoy the humiliation of being a sissy, it is difficult to describe liking something so much, craving it when it isn't present and being angry with myself for loving it so much when it is in front of me. Goddess told me later she was surprised I reacted so well, for the first time I watched a man make her cum, fuck her with his far superior cock making her feel like I never could, all while he said humiliating things to me - yet I licked up his cum and sucked his cock like he was my lover not hers. She said that when she saw that it confirmed in her mind I was truly a sissy at heart, not just pretending to be one for her. After he recovered a little he made me lie down on the bed and he leaned over me and fucked my mouth with his thick cock. Goddess rubbed me in my panties as they talked, laughed at how much I was enjoying it goddess rubbed me in my panties. I didn't care about the laughter, I was enjoying being fucked in the mouth by this stud. I took his cock deep into my throat, goddess was very proud of how I took him. We weren't able to play much longer and it ended before we could make him cum again.

It was a very erotic experience for Goddess and I. Our first real bull. He is such a stud, he knows just what we are looking for and is able to give it to us. We are both excited to see him again, soon. Goddess has talked about it many times in the last few days. There was one moment where in the middle of fucking Goddess got up to use the RR. He came over to me and had me stroke him to keep him hard. He said humiliating things to me, yet my mouth watered for his cock. I wanted to suck him badly. He noticed this and humiliated me for it. It was extremely intense for me. There is a kind of hangover for me, after this intense night, I struggle with my feelings. Goddess helps keep me clear, reminds me who I am, who I should be for her and for us. Her sissy cuckold.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

letter from a bull

The picture above and letter below are from a new bull we met online. We haven't met in person yet but I am thinking it will happen soon and I am looking forward to it. I think goddess is as well. She gets so busy its hard for her to make a lot of time for play but I know she needs it.

This is what is going to happen. We will all be on the same bed. You will be wearing your prettiest panties and you will be sitting up with your back against the headboard. You will watch your wife and I kiss and slowly strip each other's clothes off our bodies in front of you. Then, I am going to stand on the bed and straddle you with my cock in front of your face. 

Your wife is going to crawl up on the side of you and whisper into your ear while she is stroking your cock. She is going to tell you to make me hard with your tongue. She's going to tell you to lick my balls. She's going to tell you to suck my cock and take as much of me in your mouth as you can. All this time she's going to be telling you what a real man I am. She's going to be asking you why can't your cock to be as big as mine. She's going to ask you why you can't fuck her like her lovers can. And all this time she will be stroking your cock through your panties. She is going to get you close but she is not going to let you cum. 

After you have made me hard, I am going to give you a condom and tell you to put it on me so I can fuck your wife. 

I am going to position ourselves at the foot of the bed crosswise so you can watch my cock enter your wife's beautiful pussy. I am going to ask you if you can see how wide by thick cock stretches your wife's pussy. Stretches is it like you can't because you are so small. 

When I am getting close to cumming, I am going to put her on her hands and knees facing you so she can touch your cock through your panties. We are both going to be asking you why you can't fuck her like I am. She's going to be stroking your cock, maybe she'll even lick the head of your cock. I will be holding her hips and fucking her hard and deep, looking straight at you while I am doing this to her. She is going to stroke and rub your cock until you cum. Until you dribble your tiny little amount of cum and it soaks through your pretty panties.

Then I am going to have your wife lay on her back facing you with her legs spread open so you can see her wet pussy. I am going to kneel to the side of her, take off my condom, and jerk off onto her pussy. I want you to see how much a real man can cum. And then, she's going to tell you to be a good little boy and lick all of my cum off her pussy.

Hmmmm sounds very humiliating and sexy.....not sure if I am worried or excited, lol of course in the end the sissy wins out and I am excited to lick that sexy bull cum off her!

Sunday, February 8, 2015

a true cuckold experience...

Last week she was supposed to meet the new bull, the first real bull in our lives - the one who will enjoy taking her in front of me and humiliating me while he does it. He ended up putting us off for a week. But goddess new favorite lover happened to text her that day so we set up to meet him. This would be a new thing, they had played in front of me one other time - the first time. But it was just me watching no humiliation or real cuckolding sissy stuff. The other times they have played it has been just the two of them somewhere. She coached him on what she was looking for - bull like things to do. So we met at a hotel room. They almost immediately were on each other in a deep embrace peeling each other clothes off. His magnificent cock was hard as iron by the time she got it out of his boxers. They made their way to the bedroom and i followed still dressed. I sat in a chair as directed by goddess and pulled off my jeans exposing my very sissy Andrew Christian undies. Goddess would occasionally turn and humiliate me as would her lover - he took to her coaching very well, she was pleased. At one point she beckoned me to her and took my semi limp lil penis in her mouth. She then proceeded to slap my penis and balls even grabbing my balls and squeezing them very hard - the pain was intense. When her lover saw this she told him "his pain is my pleasure". They made love for about two hours with him cumming twice. Their lovemaking was very passionate, something she said she had decided not to hide from me - which is why i call it lovemaking not sex or fucking. They had an intermission where they chatted, caressed, fondled and made out leading to a deep embrace where he fingered her and she stroked him getting him ready for round two. At one point during the intermission I left the room - i felt like they deserved/needed some privacy as they chatted and caressed.

I didn't cum that night and I still haven't as I type this. I have given goddess several orgasms since, she seems very horny since that night. I of course have relived the night often in the few days since, it is very fresh in my mind. When i think about that night all the humiliation, jealousy and pain come rushing back. It was hard to watch but those feelings quickly give way to lust, joy and a deep feeling of love want and desire for goddess...she looked amazingly beautiful that night being fucked by her lover who is a very good looking stud with a swimmers taught muscular body.

Mostly right now I just really want to such is the life of a sissy cuckold...

Tuesday, February 3, 2015


I have not cum for a week. She has never made me wait this long before and I certainly have never gone this long on my own before. If left to my own devices an orgasm a day is minimum and 3 is more typical. Of course I cum small amounts - cliche but very true. And I typically cum soft or mostly so. But I cum, the orgasm feels so wonderful even limp like a sissy. I know when she lets me cum it will be ruined....just leaking out. I should be happy she has never taken an interest in denying me before and I have always enjoyed the fantasy of it and the anticipation. She seems very into it now - to my pleasure and chagrin.

Goddess and I are meeting the the last bull pictured in the previous post some night this week. She seems excited. I am excited as well as we haven never had a real bull before and he seems to fit the part and enjoys being one. He wants me involved, there to watch and be I really should be more careful of what I wish for....

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

finding goddess a new bull

So goddess decided she needed a new bull and wanted me to find one for her. So being the obedient sissy i did what came natural and placed an ad. I used the following pictures of her.

Of course this got quite a response a few of which follow.

Interestingly she has never been with a BBC, never really gave it much consideration. After the responses she is very intrigued by the idea. I was amazed at the size of the cocks that were sent in. She was very impressed. I of course feel smaller than ever and she has reinforced the feeling. We have a few meetings set up, 2 of which are pictured above. She really wants to meet the first guy pictured but it hasn't been set up yet. She wants to meet all 3 of the BBC pictured, as well as the last guy pictured for obvious reasons!