sissy play time

I played with a man a couple of weeks ago. It was the first time in a long time I have played alone with a man. He is new, we have been texting but had not met. Goddess was with me when he came over. She met him and talked. She had me remove my clothes revealing stockings and a thong. I knelt and took his cock out. I sucked him in front of her for a few minutes. She enjoyed watching and gave him a kiss but otherwise just watched. Then she left and I brought him to our bedroom. We played on the bed, he wanted to have me in our marital bed. I sucked him off and he came in my mouth. I swallowed of course like a good sissy. His cock was 7 inches or so, nice not huge. We relaxed then went at it again, kissing and him fingering me. He made me cum, I was not yet back in my cage. He wasnt supposed to but he wanted to so he did. It wasnt a big orgasm more of a ruined leaking one, frustrating for me - which I think he also wanted. I sucked him again and swallowed another load. He left feeling very satiated. Next time he will fuck me but I wasnt ready for it yet.

The cage arrived back after its adjustment. I am in it now for a few days. I miss being able to touch my penis. I love rubbing it in my panties or feeling her rub it or just feeling it rub against her at night. As she often says it is useless in pleasing her but I love being rubbed - very selfish of me. I am working on being a generous sissy, giving of affection and worship, showing goddess the attention she deserves, the cage helps me learn. Godees has told me I can have a spontaneous cum again if I like but it is very hard to do and most times I try i end up with no cum and even more horny and desperate - maybe she knows this which is why she leaves that for me. Or maybe she just loves the thought of me being so desperate that I can cum that way, my poor little penis lacking any real contact just oozing out cum in such a pathetic way. Losing the ability to cum when I want to is very hard for me, it was one thing I enjoyed my whole life since 12. Now I not only gave that up but even the ability to touch my own little penis. Its a sacrifice she demands and so I will be obedient, I love her so much! And oddly or understandably I am happier being her sissy than I have ever been trying to be anything else.

Chastity

So my new chastity device arrived today. I have had cb6000 for some time but never really got the hang of wearing it and frankly when I did it wasnt attractive. Its too big, go figure, my penis slips out the crack and it makes my balls ache. Plus the plastic just isnt attractive. But it didnt really matter as Goddess wasnt that into it either and never insisted I wear it. Until recently, Goddess has a renewed interest in chastity, she saw some pics on my tumblr feed and was smitten with the idea. I know sounds like the plot of how many porn stories, she saw it on my porn history, tumblr feed etc...but there you have it. So I shopped for something I would find more comfortable and she would find attractive. Enter the bird cage by mature metals. Very sexy metal design, she loved it. So after 5 weeks of hand crafting it arrived today and its on me now.

So first off, way more comfortable than the cb. Second it looks like it fits me, as small as I am and you can get them even smaller but only by 1/2" which I could have but I wanted a little room to stretch for his little morning chubby. Of course in no way can I reach my full 3.5" hardness but thats the point right? Btw if you do order one of these get the sizing rings to get the right fit, I would have had no idea but with the rings I think I did well. You can customize length, girth, rings etc...so they build it just for you which I really liked. Very helpful answering questions as well, I had too many but sissy's are prone to asking a lot of questions right?

So now how do I feel. Initially it is very erotic. It is holding my penis which has now started to fill the cage more fully. But I am unable to touch myself so I cant fully enjoy the eroticism and now the reality of denial is starting to set in. The ability to rub my penis in my panties is gone, you have no idea how much I love doing that....looking at porn and rubbing.....its gone.

I will update of course. Also our Bull has re-entered the picture. Goddess is interested in him playing some role in further sissifying me. I have no idea what the role for him will be but I hope it involves me sucking his magnificent cock.

Our first Bull

First I apologize to our bull, he expected this done sooner I think and I have been tardy.

Going back a little over a week ago we met the new bull, the one who wrote the letter I posted, for a drink. We sat in a quiet little bar in a booth. One thing that really mattered would be goddess' first impression. It was favorable, she found him attractive - tall, manly with a handsome face. She also liked his mannerisms, he was easy to speak with and pleasant, he was direct and forceful but not pushy, he was gentlemanly but also very obvious and direct in his desire for her - she loved that. And she loved that he was seductive in front of me, wooing her in front of her sissy hubby. They talked and laughed, I joined in at times but mostly watched. He eventually rubbed her pussy under her dress as we sat in the booth. She opened her legs willingly for him and showed him her bare pussy. She put her hand on his cock and rubbed it through his pants. The night was cut shorter than both wanted as we had to get back for a sitter. On the way out she exposed her breast to him on command and he sucked it in the doorway. Plans were quickly made to meet again. That night she allowed me to enter her and cum inside her pussy. As is the case now it didn't last long and she didn't receive any real physical pleasure.

We ended up meeting for play the following week, last week. It was mid week so it wouldn't be able to be a long play time as we would have to get back for a sitter. We pulled up front and valet parked. We walked in without luggage or a reservation and requested a room for the night. Goddess loved it, we looked carefree and mysterious, we told the valet we would be back for the car before morning. She looked so hot. I am sure they thought us lovers in for a rendezvous, part of me wished it the case - to be her lover, the one who would make her feel like a woman, make her feel alive and passionate. She knew the truth and loved it being her secret - this handsome man wasn't her lover but her sissy, under her spell, her control. Her lover would be joining her soon enough. It was a nice powerful end to a stressful day for her. My stressful day would wind down with complete submission and humiliation.

He came into the room shortly later, I was drinking my scotch with the thirst of a sissy knowing things would be soon out of his control. Goddess sat easily sipping water, she had had one drink already and was in just the right mood. They greeted and soon were kissing hungrily. Goddess described him later to me as a very good kisser. He began removing her clothes and stood her in front of me. He kissed her on the back of the neck and fondled her, squeezing her breasts in his big manly hands. She loves having a man behind her like this, it is a big favorite, she was putty in his hands. The kissing on the back of the neck is one of her buttons, she purred. She looked at me, she smiled, she looked content, strong, superior, happy. We all knew our place in this moment. She liked showing me mine. As did he. He rubbed her pussy and made me taste the juices on his fingers. She reached back and rubbed his cock and moaned lightly as he humiliated me with words, telling me what he would soon be doing to her. He had me strip to my panties as he showed me my place. At some point his cock was out, it was magnificent. It is very thick and over 7 inches long. I sucked it on command, I loved it and hated that I loved it so much. I wanted to pleasure him, pleasure that amazing sexy cock. I wanted to taste his cum. I sucked greedily. They kissed as I sucked him, they made fun of me and laughed, he fondled and enjoyed her body as I sucked. Still I sucked, enjoying his cock trying to ignore my humiliation. He stopped me and went back to focusing on her alone. I was humiliated and turned on beyond measure. I sat and drank scotch but was not allowed to touch myself. Soon they drifted to the bedroom of the suite. I waited until called, I was allowed to rub myself in my panties as I waited. I finished my scotch as I did. Listening.

I entered the bedroom and sat as commanded in a chair at the foot of the bed. They were naked and playing. He ate her pussy and gave her a nice orgasm as a warm up. She humiliated me by saying he had replaced the one last thing I did well, licking her. Now I would have nothing left to give her she couldn't get elsewhere. He put a condom on and began to fuck her. I watched as she enjoyed him filling her, her hands roamed his body. He has a lean strong body. He was in the military for many years and his body is athletic and strong, moderately hairy, very manly. She was enjoying feeling it against her. The look in her eyes told me she was very much enjoying him. They focused on each other, only occasionally talking to me as they switched positions. Soon he came, shooting on to her pussy. I was made to lick it up. They both loved this. She would tell me later how hot it was to feel me licking it off her pussy. They kissed and held each other as I did. Then I was made to lick him clean as well. Again they cuddled and kissed as I did. Enjoying each other as I cleaned them. I felt humiliated by all of this of course. My little penis throbbed in my panties, I struggled with how much I enjoyed it as I licked up his cum and then sucked his cock. I sometimes describe hating myself for how mow much I enjoy the humiliation of being a sissy, it is difficult to describe liking something so much, craving it when it isn't present and being angry with myself for loving it so much when it is in front of me. Goddess told me later she was surprised I reacted so well, for the first time I watched a man make her cum, fuck her with his far superior cock making her feel like I never could, all while he said humiliating things to me - yet I licked up his cum and sucked his cock like he was my lover not hers. She said that when she saw that it confirmed in her mind I was truly a sissy at heart, not just pretending to be one for her. After he recovered a little he made me lie down on the bed and he leaned over me and fucked my mouth with his thick cock. Goddess rubbed me in my panties as they talked, laughed at how much I was enjoying it goddess rubbed me in my panties. I didn't care about the laughter, I was enjoying being fucked in the mouth by this stud. I took his cock deep into my throat, goddess was very proud of how I took him. We weren't able to play much longer and it ended before we could make him cum again.

It was a very erotic experience for Goddess and I. Our first real bull. He is such a stud, he knows just what we are looking for and is able to give it to us. We are both excited to see him again, soon. Goddess has talked about it many times in the last few days. There was one moment where in the middle of fucking Goddess got up to use the RR. He came over to me and had me stroke him to keep him hard. He said humiliating things to me, yet my mouth watered for his cock. I wanted to suck him badly. He noticed this and humiliated me for it. It was extremely intense for me. There is a kind of hangover for me, after this intense night, I struggle with my feelings. Goddess helps keep me clear, reminds me who I am, who I should be for her and for us. Her sissy cuckold.

Goddess has a date...

Goddess's mind fuck, possible trophy cock?

Goddess date tomorrow

Goddess has a date tomorrow night with her "mind fuck". Things heated up during their last date and the "mind fuck" is going for title of "trophy cock". They are getting a hotel room. Since he is married they will only have 3 or 4 hours but needless to say both are very excited. I got to see some of their text conversation and it was very hot. He sent her pics of his cock and a video of himself shooting and she is in heaven. I posted the video and a couple pics with her permission. He is not as long as some she has been with, just over 6 inches. But he is very thick, two inches straight across at the base - twice what I am straight across ( if I remember math right Pi times diameter equals circumfrence so he is over 6 inches around!). Goddess loves thick, more so than long. Also he has had a vasectomy so he will be shooting his loads into her which is a first for us. I can wait to eat my first cream pie tomorrow night. I will not be joining them so it will leak a bit on her way home but much will still be in there I am sure. She is hoping it turns into a regular thing but they are playing it by ear at this point. I hope some day to come in and clean up right after he shoots, a long time fantasy. She would love this as well, the thought of me feeding on her lovers cum thrills her.

At the same time my sissification has progressed. I have shaved my chest and tummy of what little hair I had. I love the smooth feeling. I am going to get laser treatment to permanently remove that hair. Goddess likes it too and has taken to playing with my boobies and sucking my nipples. She also has been taking my ass "pussy" as she calls it - I have to admit I am enjoying her calling my ass a pussy and my little cock a "boy clit". She has given me many sissy cums in my panties by rubbing my boy clit. I have really enjoyed the fucking she has been giving me, I love feeling my boy pussy so full. I miss having a real cock in me. Goddess has given permission for me to have a dominant male lover so if anyone knows a good website to find one let me know. Our swinger site isnt the right place unfortunately. Goddes and I have discussed shaving my legs, she is in favor. I will soon but it is a big step - so much more visible and noticeable in summer. Not sure i am ready, though I want to. Also shaving my facial hair. I am a pretty good looking guy with facial hair - not sure why but it really makes me cuter. if I shave it I will feel more sissy which I want but I will lose some of my male attractiveness which I still enjoy when I am out. I am sure it is coming, goddess says I should lose 10 more punds first, she is probably right but I am anxious.

switching

 Well i have to say I didnt see this one coming. Odd for me as I could have predicted just about everything in our sex life til now. She decided the cuckold thing wasnt working fro her. She didnt like me being submissive all the time. Honestly I was feeling neglected by the end due to her not wanting to domme me. I am happy to report I never did have any serious jealousy issues, our biggest worry i think. And she didnt lose respect for me at all.

So now what? Well we are giving her what she wants, I am doming her. We have had lots of fun with it, I love teasing her and she loves it. i may involve some of her old lovers in it, if she is a good girl. I may also get some other women involved, hmm... this could work. Honestly my biggest fear about doming her was my lack of penis size and ability tom last. What I am finding out is the mind fuck, and the liberal use of fingers and toys does just fine. In fact she is loving this and horny as ever. She took a butt plug for the first time and wants to again..soon! I made her lick my ass, which she doesn't like but did a fine job of. I ahve used the crop pretty hard on her ass and she liked it. She also likes me to slap her, though I dont so it hard. Being called a slut just makes her so wet. And I tell her about pimping her out to men in bars or making her give blow jobs in an adult theatre - wow she goes crazy. I fucked her from behind the other night then stopped pulled out and made her lick off her own juices. Tonight I was going to fuck her and make her clean me after I came in her. Thats definitely still on tap for another time. Alas she fell asleep. I could have used her in her sleep, she loves that but decided blogging and some porn sounded nice..back to my old self already I think.

 I miss the ability to be a sissy with all it entailed. But I am enjoying this and my chance to be a sissy will be back some day I think. There is a bbw I met that i think is sexy and like to flirt with, for some reason wifey is feeling jealous - usually she would not, she even encouraged it several times. I do like bbws! And I will be posting the video soon, it runs a little over 10 minutes. Wish I knew how to embed a video from a thumb drive, if anyone can tell me please do. I am a very low tech person..sigh....

An old friend

We had to travel out of town last week. It happened to be the same place my wife's favorite lover was staying. They got in touch and we all met up. There will be a video on our xhamster site soon, I will link it here when it is up but technical difficulties prevail at the moment. They had a wonderful time. I got involved more so this time than in the last. I really enjoy him as well, he is a good fit for both of us. He is the only one she likes in a a personal way. We had drinks ahead of time and they flirted a little, she loved having me watch them flirt. There is a possibility they will get together again soon, this time alone as I will be unavailable - she will love that if it happens. It will be our first experience of her playing alone so it will be an interesting event if it does come off. I asked her to set up the video camera so I can see it all when I get back. I am scared yet excited about it. We will  see what happens. We did get one pic, below.

Some other new things have come up. I began speaking with a couple on swing village a BBW wife and bi hubby who want to use me to fulfill a fantasy. I like the idea a lot but Goddess isn't sure yet if she is OK with it. I will be the obedient cucky hubby and be happy with what ever she decides. There is a BBW I have met through work and have enjoyed speaking with, I share all with Goddess of course and she is allowing me to flirt with her - she is OK with us having lunch as well but has not consented to anything more if it comes to that. We bought a chastity device for me, modeled by me in the pic. I have only had it on that once but undoubtedly will be wearing it again.

The other night she asked me to dom her, a real switch for us as of late. It went very well, she loved it. Of course with my little cock penetration was not a major part - at least not with my little cock. I used various toys on her including a large butt plug and the riding crop. We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves and ended the evening with a second orgasm worshiping her.

dom wife submitting to huge cock

Tonight was the night for a dom wife to be the submissive slut taken by a large intimidating and dominating cock.  I happily played the role my sissy cucky hubby plays with this dominating cock.  I told my cucky he could never satisfy me so I needed a real man to dominate me, take control and fill me to a point of ecstasy.  I told this stallion that "I just wanted him to take charge so badly" that "I ached to be submissive to a huge cock" that I controlled my hubby's and I sex life and most everything else in our lives and I just wanted to give in to someone else's control for once.  It made my cucky slut so horny and ever more submissive to know and see what I told this dom in a message. 

Sucking his large 8 inch by 7 inch cock.  He said I needed to practice and "tutored" my submissive ass in the art of cock sucking. 

 Trying for an ass fucking.

  Succeeded. And oooohhhhh did it feeeeeeel gooooood!

Look at that sexy ass!  See the hand prints? Evidence of how dom wife was put in her place by a huge cock!

Humiliating my cucky sissy slut hubby.

http://xhamster.com/movies/1039152/wife_with_her_friend.html

Link to a video on our xhamster page of me riding his huge cock!

getting deeper into the play time

So the last couple weeks after our visit with the friend have been interesting. We have had some deep conversations about our roles in all this. We are both very committed to moving forward and we are both feeling closer than ever to each other. We both wonder about the roles slipping into every day life, which we both agree is somewhat inevitable. One thing we both noticed was how much sexual activity we are having. I say activity and not sex because it doesn't usually end in normal penetration any more. When it does, which has been a couple times recently, I usually come very quickly. Once this week she wanted me in her ass but as she began to line my cock up with her asshole the rubbing around was too much and I came. She whipped me with the crop for that, which has also become more frequent. The next night I finally made it into her ass, after being in her pussy a while, but didn't last long at all.

She has expressed worry that I cant penetrate her like I used to. Neither of us know if it is a phase or will be a normal part of this new life. I wish I could penetrate and last like I used to but it does feel natural to me to not be able to like I used to as well. Odd huh? This morning she was feeling that way so I suggested the strap on. She smiled, she hadn't thought of that. I put it on and was passionate with her like I used to be and she came very quickly from my finger. I then fucked her for a while with the strap on, she loved it. Funny thing my semi flaccid cock came from the friction of the harness and the excitement of how I was making her feel. 

Earlier this week we went shopping and picked me out some new panties, now I have 6-7 pair - I am really happy about this. I cant wait to wear them all. We also bought adult diapers in my size. I wore one last night, we played some but we got tired and it didn't go anywhere. I went to bed with the diaper on. I woke up having to pee and really wanted to pee in the diaper but just couldn't do it in bed. So I got up and went into the bathroom and peed in the diaper standing up. It felt wonderful.I went back to bed and told "mommy" I had wet myself. She was very good to me and got me up to get changed and cleaned up. She enjoyed it as well but was too tired to do anything with it. We will play with that some more. This morning, before the play time, we talked about it and she enjoyed hearing the details of it.

She told me tonight that she has never been truly satisfied by any man including me until she met her favorite lover last year. He was the first to really satisfy her. What she was getting at was giving her real hard fucking with a large cock, a fuck that could really rock her world. At first I was hurt for a moment but then I realized the truth of it. Those men, bulls, are different than most. They give her and many other women something they crave. that good hard big cock fucking. I want her to have this and obviously I cant giver it to her, never could. So I am happy to see her get it from other men. We have a date lined up for next weekend with a man who looks very promising. His cock is 81/2 inches and very thick, he claims he can go for a very long time and he likes being dominant. Plus he is a bigger guy which she likes. He is not bi so I will be just watching but I am excited about it. She also has her favorite coming up the end of this month. She is looking forward to both.

feeldoe update, some nice sex and the search for a big cock..

First off we tried the feeldoe over the weekend. The woman in the pics isn't my wife, why dont we take pics of this stuff?? We have talked about it and will upload some new ones. Anyway we have the same one, the blue one, it is the thin version. Wish now I got the bigger one but we can use this one for a while then decide if we want an upgrade. It was a little akward for her but she got the hang of it quickly. She really liked it. She said she enjoyed being the one to do the fucking! She said it was a little work but she was very happy. She has not liked using the strap on in the past so this is a big deal. I of course loved it!! Big fan. Just the fact she liked it was huge but I really enjoyed the feeling. Loved looking up at her as she fucked me. She is so sexy with her big boobs and pretty face, what a goddess!!!

 

She has been messaging several guys she is interested in. She really wanted to get fucked this weekend. No luck. My cock is small and since we have started this new play I cum in seconds after entering her, when she lets me. So finding a good hard fucking is something she longs for I think. I dont blame her, in fact I will be happy for her when she finds one soon. I hope I get to watch!! Only a couple of her recent chats have been with guys that have real big ones, the guy she really wants may work out yet as we will be in his city next month. She is hoping for bigger cocks nearby, I think. But if the ones she is chatting with now can last, they seem big enough to do the job - much better than me anyway.

 

We had a tentative date set up with a guy we played with previously. He wasnt a favorite but had a really nice 8 inch cock, thick as well. plus he had a lot of endurance and he is bi. They chatted a bit and she was going to have him use me first then her. He seemed to like the idea but we couldnt make a time work. He wants to set up a date for 2 weeks from now when he is back, we will see. I am nervous but honestly sounds very hot. Sucking him then taking him in my ass. She loves the idea of having me used by him as well. She likes the idea of "giving" me to someone to use in general, man or woman. Hmmm... wonder where this will go...

 She has also been making me eat my own cream pies lately, not all the time but several times. I have grown to like it. I love the idea of eating another mans but even eating mine is hot. I hope in the not too distant future I can eat some yummy cum off her.... or out of her!