update.....

Once again I apologize for the long time between posts. Not much has changed really. We are in a sort of holding pattern when it comes to anyone outside playing with us. We have not played with anyone since our bull  which i wrote about. Goddess got very busy in her business. She enjoys her career very much, as stressful as it is. She loves being in charge, running a company - it fulfills her. If I am truly second to anyone or thing it is to her company. We all are at times. But I get it, I was once in the same place - the only difference being I am type B she is type A so she is more intense about it and driven then I was. I do want her to enjoy what she is doing, to be able to live out that desire the same as I have always enjoyed watching her fulfill other desires. Plus I am grateful as she is know the breadwinner. My place is now second to her in all things.

We have entered a new place in our relationship. She has found that she enjoys whipping me. She whips me several times a week. It begins with me laying face down on our bed with my panties or gay boy undies pulled down to my knees. I lay and wait, sometimes for quite a while - she likes to make me anticipate the coming pain. She uses a crop with a longish barrel connecting the leather end. Her favorite is to use the barrel like a cane, leaving a deep red stripe across my ass cheeks which are very white. She makes several each whipping, sometimes as many as 6 or 7. The worst ones last for days and have a welt the length of the stripe. She loves making me whimper, almost cry. She asks me if I am enjoying it and I whimper out a no, almost crying most times. She loves hearing me tell her I don't like it, it hurts. When she is done she rubs lotion into my cheeks and I tell her how much I love her, sometimes she holds me as the pain subsides.

She has had the opportunity to play many times with lovers. We ran into one at a restaurant the other night. she flirted with him discreetly they may have done more when they were out of my sight.  After he left he texted her relentlessly the rest of the night begging for her to come over. She didnt but she enjoyed the attention. She loves attention and flattery. Her favorite lovers pursue her, they flatter and email and text. She loves that. Even the bull has pursued some. She enjoys his emails very much. When she is ready to play again I am sure it will be him. He is very sexy and manly. I text him sometimes. He enjoys humiliating me and hearing what we are up to. I enjoy his humiliation and attention. I would message him more but since goddess isnt playing I dont want to bug him. And I am not totally sure what he wants to hear from me when we do message. I rub and edge thinking about him sometimes, his big thick cock, I cant wait to suck it again. He wants me to do more humiliating things to him in front of goddess. I want to please him so I will do them all gladly including eating his manly cum loads off goddess. I would gladly serve him as I have her other lovers, alone to keep him satisfied but he doesn't seem to want that. I know goddess would like hearing how I served him too, that is a favorite of hers.

As for me I have not played either. I think she would be OK with it if my regular man was available but sadly he hasnt responded to my texts lately. I would really love to suck a cock again and more, much more. I havent had a cock in my ass in a long time so I would definitely need to stretch if I did have the chance again. For now I just watch my sissy videos and dream...