This blog relates the real life adventures of a married couple in their 30's. We are happily married for more than 10 years and have chosen to open our marriage up to new sexual realities, including cuckolding, sissification and a wife led marriage. All while loving each other more each day. If this is not your thing it's OK but this may not be the place for you. If you enjoy it please feel free to leave a comment. If you have questions please leave those as well. It is written by both Goddess and sissy - sharing all our thoughts and feelings regarding the journey. All the pictures on here are taken by me or found on the web. If I found it on the web I assumed it was part of the public domain. If you see a picture that is yours and want it removed please let me know and I will remove it.

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Monday, April 9, 2012

Complete panic....

So first off we have decided to go back to her being the goddess and me the cuckold or at least the submissive hubby for now. Me doming or switching just didn't carry the energy of her being in charge over the long term an we both felt a little lost. We have made some adjustments - for now no real cuckolding for one. Also we are really trying to be casual about her being in charge. She takes it when she wants it, I wear panties pretty much all the time at home but if she doesn't feel like "dommeing" then she doesn't - we just hang out normally. This takes a lot of pressure off her, also I am less needy about being a sub - just relaxing in panties and being ready to submit as she desires. Seems to be working so far. The cuckolding may come back later. I think we would both like to find the right partner for the cuckolding, one who will play along with us. She has no problem finding men to fuck her at all. (BTW I will be adding a video link for her latest session with her favorite) but it is less fulfilling for her if I am not involved. Also we have to fave the reality that her libido isn't what it used to be, thought going back to the femdom seems to bring it back quite a bit.

So this brings us to Saturday morning. Goddess loves Saturday morning sex. Nice and relaxing. Our youngest was sleeping at a friends and our teenager was blissfully asleep in his room. We settled in fro some nice play and we were both enjoying it immensely. I had given her a nice orgasm and she was teasing me and putting a vibrator in my ass. I have to say it felt REALLY good! She was putting me in 7th heaven. I was asking deeper, deeper, begging really. The all the sudden it felt like it slipped out. I reached back and felt for it and asked "where is it"? Then came 3 words that i will never forget."Its inside you". At first I was confused since I was feeling my own closed sphincter - then sheer panic. At this point in fairness to Goddess I have to say in her mind this was not a problem. Whenever she put something in my ass, my ass would push it back out eventually. Of course in my mind I knew this was a problem - sheer panic ensued. I realized it had slipped deep in me, I could feel it buzzing away inside me. "Oh my god, ohh my god, oh my god....." was all I could get out. The look on my face told her something was terribly wrong. It wasnt coming out. I reached for it to no avail, my fingers were bloody. I began to pee myself in panic and desperation reaching for it and trying desperately to push it out. No luck. I got on the toilet and tried some more, nope. At this point we are both near tears. I am one freaked out little sissy and as the president and owner of a business she has never seen me freaked out - now she is panicking. She starts to call 911, I tell her no i dont want our son to see this. She explains to him we will be out for a while - he is still sleeping but wakes up enough for her to tell him, he is high school aged so no biggie being home alone.We hop in the car and head to the emergency room. Now I am passed panic - I am not going to die - but am really not wanting to go through this. We get in the door and the nice old lady asks why we are there. I tell her quite plainly "I have a vibrator stuck in my ass". I could have said it differently I suppose but there it was. Thankfully from then on NO ONE asked us why we were there. I saw probably 12 different health care workers that day. Nurses, xray techs, doctors, interns....and everyone knew why I was there. There were 2 unsuccessful attempts to get it out - one with me bent over a bench, no pain killers my ass being stretched by a doctor with 3 people in the room. Yah I have had fantasies like that but this didn't live up to any of them - it was brutal. The nurse apologized after that attempt. Finally I ended up in an OR completely out and had it removed. When I went under I was not sure if they could get it out without cutting me open - 50/50 I was told - but thankfully they did, no knife. But man is my ass sore - still. They told us the vibrator died in surgery but I had no plans on seeing that thing again - no matter how much joy it had brought me over the years.

So Rich, I felt your pain when you posted last week. I hope this makes you feel a little better.

Here is Goddess latest video.

 Sorry the pics have little to do with the story, I just liked them!


  1. Oh my. That really, really sucks. Sorry you had to endure the pain and embarrassment.

  2. Everyone should read this, sorry for your unpleasant experience!

  3. Wow, I'm glad to hear that is behind you. Scary experience.